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http://www1.myspace.com/smileashtonlovesyou21

it needs some help... so if ne one knows how to help me... i sure do need it!!!

~*Ashton N. Johns*~

omg this is my new like all time favorite song!!!!

Nickelback ~Savin' Me From All The Right Reasons

Prison gates won’t open up for me
On these hands and knees I’m crawlin’
Oh, I reach for you
Well I’m terrified of these four walls
These iron bars can’t hold my soul in
All I need is you
Come please I’m callin’
And oh I scream for you
Hurry I’m fallin’
 
Show me what it’s like
To be the last one standing
And teach me wrong from right
And I’ll show you what I can be
Say it for me
Say it to me
And I’ll leave this life behind me
Say it if it’s worth saving me
 
Heaven’s gates won’t open up for me
With these broken wings I’m fallin’
And all I see is you
These city walls ain’t got no love for me
I’m on the ledge of the eighteenth story
And oh I scream for you
Come please I’m callin’
And all I need from you
Hurry I’m fallin’
 
Show me what it’s like
To be the last one standing
And teach me wrong from right
And I’ll show you what I can be
Say it for me
Say it to me
And I’ll leave this life behind me
Say it if it’s worth saving me
 
Hurry I’m fallin’

Currently Listening All the Right Reasons By Nickelback see related

hey guys its ME!!!! its been for ever since i have updated and alot has happened...

SYMPATHY: 
I have decided to try and staighten up... i havent been the best person in the world here lately. ive messed alot of things up with alot of people. Laura being one of them... im so sorry about wat happened between us... it was my fault and i apologize from the bottom of my heart... chase s. im sorry to u too. we got in a stupid fight that had stupid results. bootier... im sorry for the way i treated you. it was wrong of me and i know it.. idk what came over me. i guess i let my head talk and not my heart. you guys were always nice to me and i was just rude to u. i sould have never done it and im sorry. as for everyone else if i have ever done anything to make you mad at me im sorry. im ganna try and change for the better.

DEBATE:                                                                                                                     Its been going so well. we have done so good this year and its finally coming to an end. Ive placed in so many tournaments this year and have actually quilified for NTDA state on March 4. We are in a three day tournament right now and we made it to day two for debate... and we finish congress and start DX this monday. im so excited!!! i get to see blake and gray so im pumped.

LOVE:                                                                                                                                        yeah im kinda talking to this one guy from my school but its new and i don't want to jinks it so im ganna leave it at that... if u know me u know who it is...

so that is what is going on im my life... and again im sorry to everyone ive ever been mean to... i love u guys and i want u all to know that.

if you want u can call my cell... im ganna be at home all night bored out of my mind so give me a ring...

i got a new email so SEND ME MAIL!!!!

smileashtonlovesyou21@yahoo.com

hahaha see i do love you... my email even says it!!!

ttyl lyl!!!

~*Ashton N. Johns*~

hey guys its me... i don't update often so i have ALOT to say. its New Years... 2006 here i come. im kinda depressed though today. i was datin this GREAT guy, and things were good so i thought... we spent every chance we had together the past 2 weeks, then all of a sudden out of the blue this mornin i get a text that says he can't handle it... b/c he just got out of a 4 year relationship with this phyco girl. and she really is phyco. so i know where he is coming from there crazy i know but ive had a hard time getting over my one and only TRUE love. Everyone (if they know me) knows who he is... we kinda layed everything out on the table a few weeks back and i think that helped our relationship tons!!! but still it kinda hurts b/c i was getting over him when i met this other guy (the one i was talking about earlier) and i was happy... truely happy and i thought i was going to finally be able to get over my LOVE, and i was almost over him but then this morning happened. and you know what i fell so hard for this new guy the way i did my LOVE that i guess i just figured u know what... maybe this is the right guy for me... i mean he did and said all the RIGHT things, he made me laugh every second of everyday, his family was great, especially his older sister. she was the best... we just talked for hours and hours without him about everthing. and to be honest if he came back and said lets work things out, i would in a heartbeat. but you know what if ive learned anything from my expirences... EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON!!! God makes sure that all his kids are taken care of so i know God will take care of me. i've gotta go though cause its new years and im ganna have fun and not dwell on what has happened. im over it and i hope if the same thing of sumthing similar has happened to u lately you can realize the same thing and not take it to personal. its not your fault. its just the way things are suppose to be.

i hope everyone has a HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! and please DON'T DRINK AND DRIVE!!!!

I LOVE YOU!!!

~*Ashton*~

my new years resolution is that im ganna stay single for 2006... (yeah me... we will see how long i can keep my resolution... lol!)